Experience Enlightenment
I have to remain open. I cannot have a target as it would mean an end. With a target will come a timeline, that is not sustainable.
I must keep doing, but must remain without a timeline and target.
One factor must remain undefined. I may have a target, but should not have a timeline.
As long as the body exists, nothing is allowed to pass into the past. The body stands as a barrier. As time passes the changes (in the present) accumulate in the body creating mind – every event and non-event, negative or positive, since birth keeps accumulating and forms the future as they are not able to pass into the past. Since everything “lies ahead”, there is always a future, which will be the repetition of the things accumulating. The past keeps coming back in the mind as the future – or whatever happens in the past.
At a certain point, the changes change him – taking him away – this is called death.
Suddenly there is a void in the physical body that allows the present to move into the past continuously. Suddenly everything is the past. The mind is the past. The reality is the past. Whatever the senses perceive is the past – there is no future. Only the physical body is the present – standing at the forefront and every other thing lies behind it. The physical body is the present and everything lies behind it just like a comet.
What he thinks or sees has already happened(is the past) unlike another with whom it is about to happen.
For an ordinary man mind is the future while for an enlightened man the mind or whatever the senses perceive is the past. He is the point of contact with the future – facing – in the forefront. Everything else is behind him. There is no future. He can create the future.
Every event must past into the past along with the passage of time (passing of time is manifested by changes around). But earlier they were stuck at the body and were not allowed to move into the past thus they remained incomplete pushing the body to change – thereby creating energy. With this energy they pushed the physical world to complete themselves – thus manifesting themselves – acting as per their essence.
They would complete themselves with they are allowed to sync with time.
As now, since there is a void, every event pass into the past and as they pass into the past they completes themselves, thus no trace o them remains. They become completely empty of their essesence, that was there earlier because of their inability to complete themselves.
As they pass into the past, they complete themselves thus their essence is taken away, thereby diffusing them completely.
After enlightenment, I allow everything to pass into the past, thereby I take away their essence or nature or potential.
Who am I? I know both the physical body, the void and the process.
I had a goal – I have given up
I had a timeline to meet – I have given up
I an growing old – I don’t know
Now Nature has a goal for me – but I don’t know what it is
Nature decides the timeline
Nature decides how fast I should run
Whether I should run or walk or do nothing
There is fear as I give up control
But I still wait
I know when my rate of change is my own and not borrowed, everything will fall into place
Why the trouble?
Why the fear? Others will do what I want to do.
Others will achieve what I want to achieve.
But I cannot be replaced. My work can be replaced.
The question is who am I?
What is the importance of me?
How do I define myself? Do I have a definition?
What is the uniqueness that is impossible to replace or defeat?
My spontaneity is unique. The way I respond to a “call” is unique.
How often I respond to a call is unique – the rate.
It cannot be taught.
Let Nature make me because I am unique.
Nature makes me who I am.
Nature makes me unique.
Let nature call, and I will respond.
Nature calls as per my rate of change – my rate of change is unique to me.
If I allow nature to change me, it will make me change as per my unique rate.
My rate of change is unique.
How do I deduct my work from me?
Let my work be very little?
Let there be no work but only response.
Response at a rate that is unique to me.
If there is no call, I will do nothing in particular.
One’s true nature is the rate at which he, she or it changes with time.
Everything in this universe has its true nature – rate of change as per their true nature. Everything in this universe has a different rate of change – A tree takes decades to grow, a bee flaps its wings 200 times a second, a horse runs fast, mountains change in millions of years – according to their true nature. Humans are also different – they have their own true nature. If one is not changing as per its true nature, it will cease to exist and be born again to match its true nature. In an extreme case, he or she either dies, or adheres to his true nature – it is a shift – one gets enlightened.
Whatever detours I have been forced to take were for me to match my rate of change. My rate of change makes me unique as the rate of change is different for everyone.
Almost 99.99% of people change together – because they follow the chronological clock – the crowd, they move how the crowd moves. Only 0.01% change as per their nature and thus they become visible – their uniqueness comes to the surface – they look different. Whole world has been made to follow a clock and they change, not as per their true nature, but as per the chronological clock.
Now I am changing as per my true nature. There is nothing to do. It will automatically change. Whenever I go fast, I am brought back. So, I should not try to go fast.
Whatever happens, all detours, if they all happen, will happen to slow me down to make me match my true nature.
When I don’t know, I should accept the fact that I don’t know and not try to know. I should let the future unfold on its own rather try to unfold it myself.
I have realized that I am beyond all titles and little praises that people seek. I am also above being the richest man in the world because I know that even after being the richest man, I would still keep searching.. be dissatisfied..
Nothing satisfies me. I am attracted to nothing.. I chase nothing – I have outgrown everything, I have reached the pinnacle.
Now there is nothing to plan or do.
At enlightenment, I am standing at he edge of a cliff. I reached here walking. Earlier, at every point, there was something to step on to, but now there ia nothing.
Now everything is behind me. The past is behind me. Ahead is the final fall into nothingness. One can fall anytime and hence the fear. There is a great fear of falling as there is nothing ahead, nothing to put a step on.
As everything is going into the past, there is a feeling that I am going into the future, but the future is a fall for me – hence great fear.
The falling off from the cliff is called Mahaparinirvana.
At the fag end of your logic, you will always find two options, but you will never be able to choose between the two no matter how much you try, this is the end of duality – you are able to observe two option from a third point – this third point is the point of non-duality or the third eye – you can see the two position but will never be able to choose between the two.
You have taken a jump from the two opposite positions to the third positions, now there is no going back.
At enlightenment, the possibilities come to and end, but how the possibilities have come to an end, I cannot say, but if you have arrived, you will be able to corroborate your experience by reading this post.
Possibilities come to an end under two circumstances:
(1) When the changes have happened, when the possibilities have been able to push existence enough and make the required changes in existence thus releasing the pressure – the dream has come true
(2) When the dream will never come true, hence there are no possibilities, the possibilities have not been able to change existence and hence have failed and like a balloon, has burst. The pressure has been completely depleted
You will never known which one has happened. You will never know why the possibilities have come to an end.
Now, there is no driving force to pursue the dream – it has either come true or will never come true. In either of the cases, there is nothing to do – hence no driving force.
If you are able to see both – you are sitting at the third point, a non-dual position thus able to see both the positions, but not able to chose either of them.
Sitting in this third position, you do not know which path is right. How what is the right path? The path that will make the dream come true – we do not know whether the dream will at all come true or has already come true – we are unable to see either.
The mind is always, from the morning, prompting me to act – it shows little possibilities and expects me to create more possibilities from them – but no possibilities can be created by me or created at all.
I have realized that this moment is vast and infinitely heavy and cannot be changed by me, neither should I attempt.
I change along with this moment.
Onami 