Experience Enlightenment
When the void has formed, everything pass into the past. As events pass into the past in quanta, their potential is released – but in the past, their essence is lost. When the Void is there, everything – events, thoughts, mental constructs, etc are in the past.
Thus there is no future. What is there is the present is the physical body or in other words, the present is the physical body.
If the present moment is God, then this physical body is God.
I was a part of the crowd, hence I was not visible. I was one of them.
Now I am alone and unique, so I am exposed.
I am the odd man out, hence visible – exposed and fearful.
Exposure leads to fear. Being the “odd one out” leads to fear.
Exposed because, after enlightenment, I cannot wear another’s jersey.
Earlier I wore someone else’s jersey.
I am not able to be my body, let alone other people
If I was able to own my own body, I would not be alone. I would not be afraid
Who am I? I am consciousness. I am freedom. I am aloneness.
Though being the body temporarily, I do not have my body.
As long as the physical body is there, it is the consciousness. Earlier it became a lot of things – at a point in the past, it could only become the body
Now it cannot become anything – hence alone and afraid.
Now the question is…
Who is able to see me as different? The process is internal.
I have become aware of my aloneness. The consciousness has become aware of its aloneness.
Earlier there were others – the consciousness is saying – now there is no body.
Hence I am afraid.
As long as I have this physical body, I am “consciousness”
When one is alone, anything happens he is afraid – hence I am afraid too.
It is the fear of freedom.
Whatever is here and now, is. There is no question about it. Whatever is not, cannot be brought in.
My desire is no longer in my body. Now, like a ghost, it picks up any male body to express itself.
It is as if my soul is looking for a physical existance to express itsel
She is also an expression of my desire.
Now I am free from my desire.
She came along with the wind & took away all the potential I had, leaving behind only the physical body and leaving me completely exposed and vulnerable.
Then one day, in my dream I saw her wearing my clothes.
Then now in my thoughts, I see her having everything that I had, including the potential to love. Except the physical body, she is everything but me.
If you want to see me, go meet her.
It has become almost impossible for me to do anything. This is because the consciousness has become one unlike earlier when it was like a hand of a clock and it now does not move from one subject to another to comply with the passage of time. The hands have been removed from the clock.
I cannot work, do or complete anything now as I am no longer bound by time.
At enlightenment my complete potential was taken away. It was placed on another, my potential was placed on another, I still do not know who.
Now there is no potential in me. I am just the human body. The body can now not be felt either as it is also in the present.
Without potential or ability to do anything at all, there is fear. There is fear because it seems I will not be able to do anything if things go wrong.
As I have no potential now, everyone looks powerful and successful and feel (rather I know) I can never beat them.
I feel I am at the bottom.
Whatever I am is being continously taken away.
If I connect with her, she takes away what I have leaving me comepletely exposed.
If I am with another person, he takes her away as she was with me.
Whatever, I am completely stripped off everything.
What I am observing is that all my attempts to be dual is being thwarted. I have outgrown duality and have become non-dual.
The Ego or the “Self” cannot surrender .. it is not meant to die..but to survive at any cost… if we (the ego is no one but us) try to surrender it will split it into two… one part will surrender and the other will take pride in it…
The ego or self needs to be defeated so that there is no question of any surrender. Surrender (also in a real battle or war) is a method to escape defeat… one says “we surrendered” (not defeated)… the ego (or we) need(s) to be defeated to such an extent that it can never come back…this point is freedom…
Surrender is a “self” act. It cannot lead to complete freedom… for complete freedom, we need another.. and this is the starting point of “Duality”. Once we become dual – we will experience oneness simultaneously …
We all must strive to become Buddhas. We either remain who we are and suffer or become buddhas and escape…
Onami 