Past in Beyond the Senses

The body acts as a barrier to time or change. Time is not allowed to pass – for sometime. The body does not allow change to take place – but the body itself changes with time – time is a super force. There is no force greater than time. The body allows, but partial changes. The partial changes await at the body. Every partial change, as absorbed by the senses, is stuck at the body barrier and they keep accumulating – some lead to changes within the body (like heartbeat, blood flow and other body functions) and some change the body in space – movement. But the changes are still not complete. 

Before enlightenment, there is only a future (and no past) as nothing has passed into the past – everything is lying ahead of us. Whatever has happened waits at the physical body and is always ahead of us, never behind. These events are waiting to relieve themselves as they are stuck at the body. 

As a man gets enlightened, a void forms in the body and all partial changes that were stuck at the body barrier are allowed to flow (through the void) into the past and complete themselves thereby making themselves devoid of potential or essence. They had essence or potential as they were not allowed to pass into the past and were stuck. They lose their potential and become the past. They lose their potential while they pass through the void.

This place called the “past” is infinite as there is no physical body that stands as a barrier to time. 

This “past” that is beyond the void is beyond the senses.

And everything that is perceived by the senses is without essence. 

With time, if the body does not allow time to pass, time carries the body along with it – it is called death. 

The awareness is personified but not a person

There are two entities. One, the awareness and two, the physical body. I am the awareness. What I address as “I” is the awareness.

After my enlightenment, I was afraid. If I am only the “awareness” of my own emptiness – then the question comes “Who is afraid?”. I could not answer this question for a long time until today. 

Today I realized that this awareness is personified and it is a revolution. It has an “I”. But this awareness is not the physical body. 

The awareness is personified but not a person.

I, the awareness, is/was afraid of its own emptiness – of the emptiness and not of another “mass” as the awareness is massless.

I am the “awareness”. I have become aware of my own emptiness. But I am not the physical body. I know that I am empty, devoid of mass, and hence I am afraid.

The “I”  (the awareness) is expressing itself through the physical body. My physical body and actions are an expression of the “I”.

The physical body is a tool or the “I” (awareness). The awareness interacts with the world with the help of the physical body. The awareness gets is plan accomplished with the help of the physical body.

I am aware of the “I”, I know I am the “I”, but others see me as the physical body. They do not know the “I”.

So, what I think of myself as, and what others think of me are very different.

I am massless

I have become aware that I am empty, massless. I have realized that I am just empty – not an empty container, but infinitely empty – there is no end to the emptiness. 

Self realization is the realization that one is empty.

I have become aware that I do no longer have a body – it has been set aside leaving me empty.

I have realized that I am alone. Since I am alone & no one in my rescue, I am afraid.

Because I am afraid, I questioned – Who is afraid if the physical body has been set aside? There must be someone who is afraid

I realized that the awareness is personified – otherwise who is afraid?

The “I” is the awareness. 

But If I am alone – without a second, who am I scared of, there is nobody. 

Since I am alone, who is there to scare me? There is no one to scare me. 

My “being afraid” is false – it is assuming that someone is there. But it is only the emptiness. I am afraid of not people, but of no-people.

I am afraid of the emptiness and not of another. 

Whatever is, is non-physical and an observed phenomenon. Nothing in me touches the physical body iit has been set aside. The awareness has become alone by setting aside the physical body.

The physical body is needed because the awareness “I” (who knows that there is nobody) expresses itself through the physical body or is reflected through the physical body.  

The “I” is not the physical body. Even to utter that “I” to express the personification , the physical body is needed – hence the body. 

The physical body is a tool available to the awareness. 

But the “I” is only the knowledge that there is nobody.  

Just like the leaf, the physical body expresses the “awareness” – The physical body is not aware of its own nature.

Our Most Stable State

Our most stable state is a state of continuous self-search. We keep searching “who we are”. We cannot tolerate stagnation.  When we conclude, we tend to become stagnant – but this is not our real nature. The moment we feel we are stagnant, we start to search again.

Ever wondered why we seek free time? To search;  to stay inconclusive and search.

When we continue with an activity for some time we seem to get stagnant. We seek time to search but remain inconclusive.

This is what we are – inconclusive – unfathomable – infinite.