No more timelines

It is not that I will emerge as victorious one day. The ego wants to win. The ego wants to give itself and others timeliness. It cannot exist without timelines.The ego wants to discard the other and be alone.

After enlightenment, things have reversed. I cannot live with a timeline. Things I start, must not have an end. Nothing should finish. Thus winning or losing does not come into the picture.

I will have to keep asking. There is no end to it as I have become defunct after my enlightenment and the “I am” is missing.

Body is God

When the void has formed, everything pass into the past. As events pass into the past in quanta, their potential is released – but in the past, their essence is lost. When the Void is there, everything – events, thoughts, mental constructs, etc are in the past.

Thus there is no future. What is there is the present is the physical body or in other words, the present is the physical body.

If the present moment is God, then this physical body is God.

The awareness is personified but not a person

There are two entities. One, the awareness and two, the physical body. I am the awareness. What I address as “I” is the awareness.

After my enlightenment, I was afraid. If I am only the “awareness” of my own emptiness – then the question comes “Who is afraid?”. I could not answer this question for a long time until today. 

Today I realized that this awareness is personified and it is a revolution. It has an “I”. But this awareness is not the physical body. 

The awareness is personified but not a person.

I, the awareness, is/was afraid of its own emptiness – of the emptiness and not of another “mass” as the awareness is massless.

I am the “awareness”. I have become aware of my own emptiness. But I am not the physical body. I know that I am empty, devoid of mass, and hence I am afraid.

The “I”  (the awareness) is expressing itself through the physical body. My physical body and actions are an expression of the “I”.

The physical body is a tool or the “I” (awareness). The awareness interacts with the world with the help of the physical body. The awareness gets is plan accomplished with the help of the physical body.

I am aware of the “I”, I know I am the “I”, but others see me as the physical body. They do not know the “I”.

So, what I think of myself as, and what others think of me are very different.

From Bondage to Freedom

The moment you make a decision you are drifting; you are changing track. The decisions that you make depends on the options that you have. The options are in your mind in the form of thoughts. You pick up a thought and act or not act on it. The thoughts that you have today depends on your birth and your birth in not in your control. You cannot choose your parents or the family or the environment in which you will be born. This is decided by existence or God or Nature, whatever you may call it. Today If I am an engineer, the Idea of being an engineer must have come from my parents or from the education that was provided to me by my parents. The thought must have come to me from somewhere outside, which depends on the environment in which I was born and my birth was not decided by me. So whatever I do, it is the decision of creation or existence or God. So we see that we remain confined to our small world. This is the case with everyone of us. We are bound by our world in which we were born. And we keep circling within our small worlds. We are limited within our small worlds. Our actions are limited by our thoughts and our thoughts are limited by our births. We are constantly drifting, but drifting within our worlds. Whatever we do, we are confined to our world. In the modern times, our small world is the whole world because we all are connected. We know what someone else is doing, who may be half the world away. We can get ideas and thoughts from someone else who is half way around the world. Whatever we do, we are as if chained to our own worlds. This is the case with all the people in this world. Each one of us is acting according to the thoughts they have. All of us being born in the same connected planet have similar thoughts and we act according to our thoughts. Millions of people have similar thoughts and when so many people are acting on similar thoughts using their will power (only when your will is acted on a thought there is action), they are bound to clash with each other and there is bound to be conflict. There is bound to be suffering. Someone will win and someone will lose. No one can always win. There has to be loss and one cannot win all the time. This is the wheel of the world and it is dangerous. Because of this the world is made of opposites – Happiness and sorrow, of victory and defeat, of good and bad. This is why our lives are full of both. One cannot say that one will always be a winner and one will always be happy. This is the case with everyone. To an ordinary man, he is born into bondage. Being in bondage he suffers. He cannot get out of this bondage.

If you look closely, every day we make decisions are all decisions are for ourselves. We all want to earn money, we all want to have a good position in society, we want power, we want to be famous, we want to do great business, we want a better job, we want a good house, and we want a peaceful family, a good husband, a good wife, good children and a lot more. In every action of us there is an “I” or “ME” included. There cannot be action without this “I”. Everything that we do is for ourselves. The decisions we make every day is because of this “I”.  There are millions of people in the planet, working for their “I”. This “I” makes us act. This “I” makes us move forward in life. And all these “I”s are bound to clash with each other. There is suffering, there is conflict, and there is killing and violence. The world moves because of all the “I”s otherwise there would be no movement. The wheel of the world moves because all the “I”s and this wheel is dangerous. It creates enormous suffering for all the people.

There are two ways to freedom from this bondage.

• One, if you decide NOT to drift at all. You decide not make a decision at all. You decide once and for all not to act on your thoughts, whatever your  thoughts may be, whatever may be the source of your thoughts, and you will  not act. You leave the world, and become a recluse. You do not care about this world – you do not care about your parents, wife, children or husband. You do not care about anything at all. You do not care about what will  happen to them if you leave them forever. You say “I don’t want anything” and leave. In this path, only the “I” remains and everything else is renounced. If you are the “I” and the world is “you” – the “You” or everything other than “I” vanishes, leaving only the pure “I”. If you see closely using your intellect, then you will know that the “I” exist because of the “You”. Without the “You” there is no “I”. So, when the “You”  is completely removed by slowly renouncing the “You”, when the “You” is no  more, the “I” also vanishes – leaving you enlightened – leaving you completely Free. You become a Buddha.
• Two, if  you decide to drift as and when required as if the drift is being done by      Creation or existence. You will provide no resistance to drift. This is  just the opposite of the first method. You decide to be in this world, drift and change course. You care about everything, do everything; you use your will to act on your thoughts. But if you act on all your thoughts then there s bound to be conflict. There is bound to be suffering. What to do then? The problem is not because of your action, but on the results of the actions. The results cause suffering – the results make you win or lose, the results make your victorious or make you a failure. The results will make us drift in life. In this method, you have to leave the results in the hands of God. In this method, you will just drift and not bother about drifting.

If we are being driven by god, then all we have is free time. The journey is his responsibility, ours. We do not know where we will drift, where we will change course. He will drive us to our goals; we need not bother to reach. If you look back, we have been drifting along all our lives and the point where we are today is because of all the drifts that had taken place in the past. So, we have lots and lots of time. Time does not matter. One need not be in a hurry at all. Even if you are late, it does not matter. Even if you miss something it does not matter. For example, in a 10 hour journey, what do you do? You may read; you may listen to music; you may chat with other co passengers or with anyone travelling with you. You are free to do whatever you want. You may look out of the window and enjoy the scenery. You may go to sleep. Whatever you do, it is not going to affect the journey. Because whatever you do, you are journeying in the right direction. No time is going to be wasted.  You need not worry about what will happen if you do not do what you are doing during the journey. You may do something or not do something – it does not matter.

Similarly in life, whatever you do, no time is going to be wasted because you are driven by God. If you cry, you are not wasting time, if you read or if you celebrate and enjoy your journey, you are not wasting any time.

If the results are in his control, then we are free from the results, then the responsibility is on His shoulders or on existence. He will take you wherever He has to take you and He is will definitely take you.

If you are crying – you are passing time by crying

If you are angry – you are just passing time by being angry

If you are doing business – you are passing time by doing business

If you are driving – you are still passing time by driving

If you are working – you are still passing time by working

If you are sad – you are passing time by being sad

If you are depressed – you are passing time by being depressed

If you are celebrating and rejoicing – then you are passing time by celebrating

If you are serious about something or someone – you are just passing time by being serious

If you are fighting with someone – then you are passing time by fighting with that person

If you do not do anything – even then you are passing time by doing nothing

When you are passing time, you are just passing time, there is no responsibility on you – you can take work as a play, whatever you do – and when you are passing time, without any responsibility of results – you can celebrate.

All you do is just pass time – you have nothing else to do – there is no hurry – your arrival will be decided by him – and in the mean time you have to pass your time. And while in a journey we always enjoy. At least the journey is enjoyed – we do not know what will happen when we arrive – but relax and enjoy the journey because we are not driving the bus or train, we do not have to bother about the route, we do not have to bother about whether we are in the right direction or not. We know that we will arrive and this makes us relax. Remember that this journey is an unending journey so there is rejoicing and celebrating all our lives. There is freedom all our lives – no matter where we are and what we do.

In the process of being drifted, understand that God is drifting you, this drifting is your journey and during the process – celebrate and enjoy – whatever you are doing, wherever you are – just enjoy – know that what you are doing does not matter and wherever you are does not matter.

Do whatever you are doing, but change a little in the way you think. You have to keep in mind one line “NOT ME, BUT THOU ART”.

You do whatever you do, but know that it is not for you that you are doing this but for the other.

• If you are getting married – You marry for not your happiness, but for the happiness for your spouse.
• If you are earning money – you are not earning money for yourself or for your happiness but for your family and others
• If you buying a house – you are buying it for the happiness for your family for the safety and security of your family
• If you are working – you are working for the betterment of your family – to give them a good life
• While taking decisions, while acting on your thoughts – know that all your actions will be for the other and not for yourself
• If you are struggling – know that you are struggling for others and not yourself

It will be as if, you are slowly removing yourself from the picture, leaving behind the conflict. It is as if you are making the wheel of the world move freely by not being a block and getting crushed in between. It is as if you are making the life of others easier by not being a block on their way. It is nothing but just a change in the thought process. In this case, you put yourself last and others ahead of you. This will help to slowly do away with the “I”. The “I” will slowly vanish and you will be left with only “you”. And when the “I” vanishes, the “you” also vanishes leaving you enlightened – you become a Buddha.

Your mind is the Society

If you do something new, the society may not accept. Each and every person will have their own comments – good, bad, right, wrong etc. Most of them will stop you from doing it. You all must have had this experience. Even if they do not stop you physically, they will have their own comments. They will discuss within themselves about your new endeavor – whatever it is. Some people will say that you are right and some people will say that you are wrong. If these people in the society are made to sit together and have a group discussion on your new endeavor, they will continue to argue for years. But have you ever thought, why are these people always discussing – because they want to know the outcome of your new endeavor. But one thing is clear that they cannot stop you physically from doing what you want to do and they cannot ever come to a conclusion. It is impossible. No one is able to know the future. That is why I say that the discussion will continue for years and one day they will forget or they will give up being tired of discussing.

Imagine that one day the society vanishes, no one is there. You are alone with your new plan. The moment you “think” of working on your plan, you mind starts speaking. It will talk about right and wrong, good and bad etc etc. There will start a discussion in your mind. A group discussion – consisting of various voices. Some voices will say good, some will say bad, some will say right, and some will say wrong.

If you watch is closely, it is the same group discussion that would have happened between the people in the society. The comments or objections that will come in your mind while you are alone, will be the same comments raised by the people in the society.

The comments or objections are always the same, whether it is in your mind, or the society. You mind also raises the same objections. This is because, whatever we have learned, it is from the society. The good, the bad, the right and the wrong has been decided by the society. So whatever the mind knows is nothing but what the society knows. It is all the crowd knows. In short, your mind is the society. Your mind is crowd.

Your mind consists of all the people living in the society. That is why a group discussion is possible in your mind. That is why there are various opinions. If there was only “one”, then the questions of “yes” and “No” would not be there. A discussion would not be possible. A discussion will be possible only when there are more than one. Difference of opinion is possible only when there are more than one inside. All these people, since they are in your mind, that the form of “I”, in your mind.

You think that it is you saying once – yes- and once – no. But in reality there are many people giving their own free opinion to you in your mind.

IT IS NEVER YOU. NO THOUGHT CAN BE YOURS.

Whenever you mind objects or raises questions, know that it is not you, it is the society objecting or raising questions. And similarly the discussion in your mind is also because it wants to know the outcome, it wants to see the result. You must have noticed, that you also always want to know “what will happen?”,whenever you want to do something new.

The discussion in your mind, will also fade and eventually stop once you don’t give a damn to it. This is the way. You can do away with the society, by only not listening to what your mind says.

You cannot erase the society but you can always go beyond your mind. Going beyond the mind is going beyond the society. You can always know the millions of voices inside, and say to yourself “I will no longer listen to you” and go ahead in life.

But the final question is of this one “I” who says “I will no longer listen to you”. Even if you do away with all the “I”s made up of the society, this one “I” remains. Doing away with this final “I” is the final step towards enlightenment.

The Walking Experiment – To Know the Inner Voice

If we watch ourselves carefully, we will know that we are always in a hurry. Whatever we are doing, walking, eating, driving, working, we are always in a hurry to finish. But we do not know the reason for our hurried-ness  We do not know what will we do after we finish what we are doing now. But we are always in the hurry to finish.

This hurried-ness comes is unconsciousness. We don’t know but we hurry. If you read my post “Why we hate? – The exercise”, you will know that we are not one, but we are divided into so many identities. Some of then we are already and the other identities, we want to be. But this whole thing is imaginary. All the “I”s are imaginary.

We are in a hurry because, we fear that if we are late, we might cease to be what we think we are, we may no longer be the “I” we think we are. These “I”s make us who we are, otherwise who we would be. But the strangest part is that, all these “I”s are imaginary and we keep chasing and protecting these “I”s all our lives. It is just like you imagine someone has thrown a ball high up, an imaginary ball, thrown high up by an imaginary person, and you run to catch the imaginary ball in reality. This is madness.

All those things that are in your mind are imaginary, they cannot be real, but take them to be real, they make us who we are, how can we let them go? The only reality is here and now.

In your mind, automatically you are put in a situation, good or bad, whatever, and then another “I” emerges rationalizes the situation. If it is a bad situation, the “I” says “don’t worry everything will be fine” and if it is a good situation, you rejoice in your imagination. But the unfortunate part is that everything is imaginary, except what you are doing here and now.

In your mind, several “I”s emerge and they keep talking with each other and the “Real” you does something else. But we are not able to do something else, we get involved in the argument or discussion between the “i”s in our mind. By “We” I mean another “I”, forms and takes part in the mental discussion. Two “I”s are discussing and we take the form of another “I” and join the discussion in our mind, all imaginary. “I” after “I” forms and we are lost in the discussion.

The moment we take part in the discussion, we are lost from the real world. If we are walking our walk takes the rhythm of the discussion that is going on. If we are driving, our driving takes the rhythm of the inner talk. This happens because we remain unaware of the inner talk. The moment you are aware of the inner talks, the inner talk stops.

Most of us are unaware of this inner talk. I have devised an exercise that would let you know your inner talk. It is as follows:

Most of the time, when we are walking with someone, we see that the speed of our walk increases and becomes very fast. We are continuously talking and our walking gets faster and faster and reaches a point where our legs start to ache. Then we slow down. Till the time, our legs did not ache, we did not realize that we are walking so fast. But we did not start with an intention or objective to walk fast. But it happened. This happened because, our walk took the rhythm of our talk.

The same happens when you are walking alone. We start slow but then the speed increases when we have walked for some time. We think we are alone but we are not. What will happen to all these “I”s. We are actually many, may be hundreds, all alive and kicking! They are talking discussing their survival strategies. And every moment another “I” emerge and take part in the discussion, all imaginary, but we think that it is us.

The walking exercise:

1. Start walking alone on a road or a park, a place which is not so crowded

2. With time your speed will increase but you will not know about it.So I suggest you put an alarm so that it reminds you in 10 minutes time after you have started.

3. The moment the alarm rings – stop for 5 minutes – you may sit, if you find a place to sit nearby

4. Just watch your mind – The thoughts and you walk were “synergizing” each other. They were moving at a same speed, the thoughts in your mind, and your walk. The thoughts had also taken up a momentum. The moment you stop walking and sit. The thoughts, having a momentum, will continue in the same speed for some time. This is the time, when you will come to know your inner chatter very clearly.

5. Start walking very slowly after 5 minutes of sitting. – I mean very slowly – you will notice that the chatter will be minimum when you walk very slowly. Keep walking for 10 minutes very slowly. In these ten minutes, if you are aware, you will slowly feel that, as time is passing after you have started walking slowly, the intensity of the inner chatter is increasing very slowly.

These 5 steps will very clearly let you know you inner chatter. It will let you know what you are thinking all the time. You are discussing all the time in your mind. In step 4, when you watch your mind, things will be very clear. If you continue with this exercise for 5 days, you will know all your major inner arguments, because our arguments are all repetitive.

Once you know your inner chatter, you will realize that you are not actually who you think you are. You will come to know that you are most of the time an imaginary identity in your mind, discussing with all other identities.

Then your actions will change, because, you will earlier only aware of the inner chatter and took it for reality. Now you will have options, whether to act as per the requirement of this moment or go as per the inner imaginary chatter in your mind.

These imaginary identities are kept alive only by thinking. The more you are unconscious, lost in your mind, the more they are prominent and alive. The more you throw the light of your awareness on them, they vanish.  This is the reason why humans are always thinking, they need time to think, they need time for relaxation, so that they can always think, unconsciously, and keep them alive.

Knowing your inner imaginary chatter, and understanding that it is all imaginary and acting as per the requirement of the moment will completely change your life for the better.

Why We Hate? – The Exercise

This is a continuation of my post – “Why we hate?”. As I have always said, in order to like or love, you have to first eliminate hate. You cannot forcibly eliminate hate or forcibly love. Love is always there, but it is clouded by hate. You have to remove hate by understanding. Once hate has been removed by understanding, love will automatically happen. So our effort should not be to love, but to remove hate.

I have written about an exercise in my post – “why we hate?”. I am doing the exercise myself, to make you understand clearly what I meant in my previous post.

I have made three columns – The first column contains all the “I”s. It contains what makes us who we are, in the second column I have written the person or the situation that make us who we are and in the third column I have written when we start hating the person responsible for making who we are.

	What makes you “YOU”	Person/Things concerned that makes You “YOU”	When we think that we are in trouble and hate the person concerned
	I am a good person	Society	The society has given you a label of a good person. If one or more person in the society calls you bad or not so good, you start hating that person and love those who call us good
	I am 30 years old	Society	Any one who calls you older or younger that what you are, you start hating that person
	I am a son/Daughter	Father/Mother	If by any change, my parents disown me, we become depressed
	I am a father/Mother	Son/Daughter	When your son or daughter leaves you, you become sad
	I am a husband/wife	Husband/wife	When we go through a divorce, we suffer and ultimately start hating the spouse of causing you so much trouble
	I have a good looking husband/wife	Society	Someone says your spouse in ugly, you hate that person
	I am good looking	Society	Someone calls you ugly – you hate that person
	I have a healthy body	Myself/society	Someone comments that you are looking sick and down, you hate that person
	I am a friend	My Friends	when your friends leaves you (goes to another city) or when he is no longer a friend, when he no longer listens to you, hatred slowly develops
	I am an Employee in a Reputed Company	Company	when the company asks you to leave, you hate it.
	I am the owner of a car	My Car	When you car is no longer your car or is stolen or has been damaged or has broken down, you are sad and eventually think about selling your car – you start hating your car or the person who lead to that situation
	I am the owner of a house	My House	When you have to sell your house for some reason or the other you feel sad
	I have money in my account	The money	when you loose money, you are worried and sad
	I am famous in my fiend circle	My Friend circle	when you lose importance in your friend circle, you are sad
	I am educated	My school/College	when someone calls you that you are behaving like an uneducated person, you hate that person
	I am a student	My school/College	When, due to some reason or the other, you are asked to leave you school, you hate you school or college
	I am a teacher	My students	When one or more students leave you, you are sad
	I am someone’s adviser	The person(s) I advise	When the person who seeks advise from you no longer does so, you are initially sad, and then start to hate that person
	My Goals	Person/Things concerned that will make us achieve our goals.	When we think that we are in trouble and start hating the other
	I want to be rich	Money (Through work or Business)	When you lose you job or your business suffers or when you lose money you are sad and hate the person who is responsible for this loss
	I want a promotion	My Manager	You hate you manager for promoting some other employee instead of you
	I want to start a business	Money, Idea, Co-founders, Customers	Someone does not invest in your company, someone disagrees to lend you money, your team disintegrates and all of then join another person, or you business has started and then somehow your products don’t see, your prospective customers do not buy you product – you start hating the person responsible for not allowing you to start a business
	I want to be famous & renowned	Society	The society does not consider you famous. You hate to live in the same society and change your city or may be country (some people do change countries)
	I want to be a writer	My Idea, Publisher, Readers	You do not have a proper Idea – you hate yourself, you find someone already has the same idea and has already published – you hate yourself, your publisher does not agree to publish your book -you hate the publisher, the readers do not consider you a good writer – you start cursing all of them you has disagreed
	I want a bigger car	Money	Somehow you are not able to have that money required to buy your favorite car – you hate the person or the situation responsible
	I want a bigger house	Money	Somehow you are not able to have that money required to buy your favorite car – you hate the person or the situation responsible
	I want another kid	spouse	Your wife does not agree for another baby, you hate you wife and may be you will think about divorce
	I want to look good	Society	Someone says that you cannot be that good looking – you hate all the people who have said that you cannot be that beautiful
	I want a good looking spouse	Spouse	You will not marry till the time you find the person of your choice – any by any chance if he or she is not upto the mark, you will hate her
	I want a rich spouse	Spouse	Your spouse was rich when you married, but due to some reason or the other, he has lost all the money – you hate him or her an eventually think about divorce
	Since I am good, I want all my colleagues to like me	Colleagues	You will hate the colleague who says that you are not good
	I want the whole world to love me, whoever I meet	the whole world	This is not possible – you will hate the whole world and eventually hate yourself for not being that good so that everyone loves you
	I want a peaceful life	situations around	Life keeps changing all the time – in case there is a crisis – you will hate yourself and you will be suicidal
	Every 3 months I want a vacation	Money, Time, Manager	There are possibilities that you may not have money, your manager did not approve you leave application, may be your have other more important work and you had to skip your vacation – you will start hating every person or situation that did not allow you to have the vacation
	I want to tour the world	Money	There are possibilities that you may not have money, your manager did not approve you leave application, may be your have other more important work and you had to skip your vacation – you will start hating every person or situation that did not allow you to have the vacation

The whole of the first column is imaginary and it is called your ego. These are all desires and they help you to be who you are. Otherwise who will you be? But all these things are cause of your trouble. Whole life, in order to realize these identities, we chase one thing or the other. If these are imaginary, than what is real? The place where you are reading this post is real. This moment – here and now is real. Everything else is just a dream. You you watch yourself – your actions and your thoughts very carefully, you will see that every single word uttered or every effort made is towards realizing the “I”s in the first column.

We hate when someone does not help us realize our first column. All our hatred arises from our desire to keep the “I”s alive. Anyone against this first column of ours, he is our greatest enemy.

The moment you know these identities of yours, these “I”s, you will know why you hate. The moment hate comes, if you are aware, you will be relate between your hate and your imaginary Identity, your “I”.

We search for peace of mind. We search for happiness. But how can we be happy and satisfied when we have much to do. Each “I” interferes with the other. And after all, trying to have peace of mind is also an attempt to realize one of the “I”s.

For someone like Gautama, the Buddha, the first column is Blank. This leads to the peak of “peace of mind” that a human being can attain. It leads to enlightenment. It does not happen by making – “peace of mind” a goal, else it would be one of the contents of your first column, but by doing away with the goal.

Having “peace of mind” as a goal is an interesting topic for discussion. We will discuss about it in another post.

We cannot do away with the first column, it does not happen so drastically But if we, GIVE A PAUSE, between our actions, if we watch ourselves, if we develop awareness, we will have a choice. You will know the driving driving force behind every action of yours. The driving force has enormous momentum, the moment you pause, the momentum is lost and you can then change you action from what your mind is saying and what is requirement of the moment.  Then these “I”s do exist for sometime, but they do not have any power on you . Yo being to change.

Two Reasons why People Hate me

I have understood, after a really long time why people hate me. Since childhood, I have had very little friends, though I have not been a kind of an introvert. I wanted to mingle with people, go out with them, but I  was not able to, since others did not like me much. When in college, It was a fact that I never had a best friend. The guy who I thought was my best friend, was someone else’s best friend and I was last in the list. While at work, people tired to avoid me. I was depressed all my life, until this day, when I realized the truth. 

There are two reasons (basically one) but I have made it two for better understanding. 

1. I open myself up very quickly

The nature of the human mind is to seek. It needs to know everything. Because the minds thinks that not knowing might bring danger. The mind keeps thinking, what kind of danger it might bring. So the mind needs to know. Whenever anything comes in its hands, it dissects it, operates on it, goes to the microscopic and submicroscopic level and tried to find our everything.

 

You must have noticed, that two people, not known to each other, when travelling together in a train or a bus, always tend to talk. The exchange names and ask each other what he or she does. It is the mind, who needs to know, because it is scared that God knows what might come up. Even if they do not talk, they keep talking within themselves about the person. The keep guessing, looking at the person’s behavior and belonging’s who might it be? And the inner chatter and guessing continues till the time they are sitting next to each other. 

And when it knows, when it has nothing to find, it throws it away. It becomes useless. The attraction was only due to the lack of knowledge about that particular person or thing. All pursuits are only to know. And because of an inherent fear. Fear makes us seek and there is no end to it. This fear never ends. If there is no fear, there will be no seeking. The fear is usually deep inside us and we generally do not know about it.  

The fear is the cause of all pursuits, whether it is an object, money or people. When the knowledge is  apparently complete, the fear is gone and the seeking is over. This is the nature of human beings.

In my case I open myself up very quickly. In the first meeting with someone, they know everything about me. They know everything, like, what I do, whether I am married or single, where I work, what are my interests, what I read, what are my hobbies and everything. I become an open book.  I don’t know why but I tell them  everything. I tend to. They come to know that I am harmless. I am peaceful. They come to know that in no way I can be of any danger to him or her. Rather the also come to know, what they can get from me. Whatever they need they take and throw me away. 

The reason is when I open myself up, their mind stops seeking. They do no longer chase me or want me. They know everything about me. Now, they do no longer want me. When I go to them, I feel ignored because I am of no use to them, and neither I pose any danger, neither I am mysterious. 

I am ignored. I feel it is my fault because I revel everything in the first few meetings itself. 

2. I reveal my own fears, problems and tensions  

We have to understand that we are all humans. We have the same fears, same tensions and same problems. Because the origin of fear is the same for all of us. We will talk about the origin of fears in another post. 

The fears are there, there are somewhere deep inside you mind. They pop out from time to time and cause you enormous tension. You hide it immediately with some cover. But the fear never goes. It remains and keeps bothering you from time to time. 

We are always in the look out for a cover. We want to hide it under a blanket.

 As I have told that all our seeking is for knowledge, we see whether the other will be of any use to us or is completely useless. The seeking is only to know whether the other will be of any use to us. What can be a possible use of another person? It may seem many things, but the most basic thing is whether the other person will be able to cover my fears. The fears are dangerous. If they pop out and possess us, it may cause enormous trouble. So we constantly look out for people who will be able to cover up my fears. 

We never talk about our fears. We suppress our fears because we have been taught to suppress our fears since the time we were children and we have been suppressing our fears since that time. We want them to be hidden and want to carry them to our grave.  

Everyone has fears. If anyone comes and tells me that he does not have fear, I would not believe. It has to be someone like the Buddha to say so. All others, I mean those who are not enlightened, have fears and we are continuously protecting ourselves. We are always trying to make our fears hide under the blanket. All seeking, all questions and all arguments (internal and external) are to protect ourselves.

When I reveal my fears, when I reveal my tensions, anxieties to others. I immediately become useless for them. They are looking for someone, who will be able to save them for their own fears, which they have been hiding. They are looking for someone fearless, which is very very difficult to find in this planet. They thought, when they met me, that may be I ll be able to save them, but I come out to be someone who is himself afraid like them.

I become a mirror and reflect their real faces, which they hate to see. They want to hide under a mask of bravery, but internally they have only fears, which makes them seek all life and they die one day with the fears. They fail to understand that I am also a human and not enlightened like a Buddha.  I have the same fears that they have. We all have same fears, because we all have the same egos, we have the same identities, which we keep protecting. 

The only difference is – I reveal and they don’t. By revealing I become a weak guy and others by hiding, become strong and brave. According to me, being brave is just a false show. It is not true. It is suggestive of another fear. Whatever we do, whether we hide or reveal, the fear is there and will be there if not completely uprooted from our being. Simply hiding our fears will not make us brave.

When I reveal my fears, I act as a mirror. I remind them of their fears because the fears I have are the same as theirs. When I talk about my fears, they see themselves in me. They see themselves as a scared person. But I cannot help. I cannot pretend. I have to reveal whatever is going on inside. I do not know whether it is my weakness or bravery.

They throw me out. 

 

Suffering Deters Creation

We are so much involved in our suffering that we do not create. Our suffering has taken us away from the creative intelligence. It is a vicious cycle. The more we suffer, the more we are involved in our suffering. And the more we are involved in our suffering, the more we go away from creation.

Suffering leads to our involvement with more suffering and everyday it takes us away from the creative intelligence. How can we be with the creative intelligence, we are so involved with suffering. We do no longer create. We have to go to the roots of suffering and eradicate it completely so that we go closer to the creative intelligence, the only one intelligence. 

The moment we remove suffering, we start creating. There is no effort required. It is automatic. The the creative intelligence starts creating through you.

There is one goal for Humans. It is to create Consciousness. Expand it so that it covers the whole universe or rather I should say, covers millions of universes. There is no other goal. Believe me there is no other goal. Remember this.

 

All confusions is because of this one confusion – whether to create consciousness or not create consciousness. We are afraid, we are skeptical because we do not know what will happen if we enter that space. This is what keeps us in confusion, not only in this life, but life after life. All other confusions, fear, dilemma are branches of this one confusion – Whether to Create or not to create consciousness. This confusion is the confusion of humanity. 

 

I have written in my previous posts that this consciousness is the supreme intelligence. It is Creation. It is existence. This is the only intelligence that runs everything in this world, starting from the working of microscopic cells in your body to supernovas million of light years away.  It is the same intelligence. This intelligence is what you call is GOD. This intelligence exists in your consciousness.

 

The intelligence is was there, is there and will be there, whether humans are there or not. This intelligence is the only “Right” and all others are wrong. We have separated ourselves from this intelligence. We have developed our own selves. This separated piece, that we called “our own intelligence” is our ego. It does not allow the supreme intelligence to function. This “our own intelligence” has become a cause of our misery. It has given rise to desires, dreams and Goals. We have forgotten he only goal, because we have separated ourselves and created our own goals. This separates us because we think that we are all and there is nothing else.

 

But Nature is not. See the tree, see the clouds, see the birds, the animals, the forests. Are they in trouble? No. Humans have put them in so much trouble. We kill animals, cut trees for our selfish desires. We destroy nature. This is a clear proof that we have separated ourselves from that supreme intelligence. 

 

God or the supreme intelligence does not want you to be sick. It does not want you to suffer. But we do suffer. Both mentally and physically. Go to the hospitals and see the condition there. Go to a mental asylum an see how sad it is. We are all fighting, competing with each other. We are always in a mood to punish each other. We are happy when we exploit another. 

This consciousness is emptiness. It is no-thing-ness. How can it create so much trouble.

It does not want you to fight court battles
It does not want you to have fatal diseases
It does not want you to breakup with your girlfriend
It does not want you to suffer divorce
It does not want you to have a bad relationship with anyone
It does not want you to meet with an accident
It does not want to become handicapped
It does not want you to loose your job

How can it? It is No-thing. No thoughts, no desires, no goals, no objectives. How can it do all these things. It is just it is. It is the “is-ness”.

The moment you have access, all these above mention things will not happen. They will be restored to the original form.

You start healing. There is more and more space. The moment these things do not happen, you become one with the creative intelligence, the only intelligence, and there will open up endless possibilities. Things will start getting restored to what they are supposed to be.

These things occurred because we have created our own intelligence, separated from the supreme intelligence.

 

I can assure you that if you start creating awareness, if you start creating space, things will change. The supreme intelligence will fill up that space you have created and your life will be aligned with the intelligence, the only intelligence. Remember there is no other intelligence. Our suffering exists because we have created our own intelligence. All that is created is all artificial and thus we have separated from the supreme intelligence.

 

And in that space so created, Nothing can go wrong. Because all wrong are of humans, all suffering are of humans. We make each other suffer more than anything else. When that space is created everything in your life will be aligned with the supreme and it will be GOD’s will.

 

We don’t know what the supreme Intelligence will create in the space created. Don’t bother to know. Let it work. Give it space to work. You can only give it an opportunity by creating spaces within.

 

Remember that your only goal is to create consciousness. And then everything takes care of itself.

Developing Consciousness 1

For doing anything, if it is not a habit or if it is new, you need space. The space will be available if your consciousness expands. Now it is trapped. Even for acting, some amount of consciousness is required. When you go more into it, spaces grow and you keep doing your work. You find space for movement. You start acting. But when you act in that space what will the outcome be, you do not know. Because this space is not yours. The space belongs to Intelligence. The only intelligence available. You do not have to be intelligent, but you have to allow the intelligence to work by creating space. When you create space, you activate the intelligent.

These are some real life examples or situations that will help you understand consciousness so that you can develop awareness. I ll keep posting one after another as and when things happen within me. Because things that happen within me that the things that happen within you. We are one and the same. Our consciousness is the same consciousness. The only difference is our conditioning. The resistance that  I feel is the same resistance that you feel. The words that are used to describe the experience may be different for both of us.

 

Whenever there is a block, or whenever you find anything difficult, or whenever you are unwilling to do something, understand that your consciousness has been completely consumed by your Mind. To do that new thing, which may be a part of the mind, may be old, even to do that, you will need space. Now there are no spaces left. But consciousness is infinite. The fact is that we are not aware of our consciousness.We are not aware of the infinite capacity of  consciousness. This is only because of our ego and conditioning, because of our mind. 

 

Example 1:

 

You drive to work everyday. You take the same route to office most of the days. You are one day transferred to a location which is completely in another part of the city. The route is unknown. The places are unknown. The traffic is unknown. 

 

You start driving from your house. You do not know the direction. You may use a GPS. On the way you keep looking and may be asking others if required. The kind of traffic is new. There may be more or less vehicles. Driving may be difficult. You will drive slow. You start early, apprehending that you might be late on the first day. 

 

You finally reach but it was difficult. You were completely engrossed in you driving and searching for your new office. You were driving but you were sometimes irritated. You kept asking yourself, when will you reach you new office and will curse your company for getting you transferred to the new location.

 

This was because, your entire consciousness was consumed by your mind. It was consumed by the new surroundings, because it was completely new. There was no prior knowledge. It was being obstructed by the existing route to your previous work place. When our consciousness is completely consumed, we become irritated. While driving, any call on you cell phone, you would have been irritated because we become completely blocked. When our consciousness is blocked, we get mentally strained. This inability to take action further becomes a cause for anger and irritation. In such situations some people, who are smokers, stop and have a smoke.

 

You drive to office everyday and get used to the route. Now it is easy because, the new “thing” was forced into your mind  and it created more space. Your consciousness expands. It is no longer limited to the route to your previous office. New space is created.

 

Now, after a month may be, you will start talking on the phone while driving, you will listen to the radio, enjoy the new surrounding, enjoy anything on the way. You may start thinking about the meeting that you will have with your team when you are in office or any work that you have to do when you reach. 

And god knows what you might come up with while you are driving to work. It could be an innovation. It could be something new. There are million and one possibilities.

 

Earlier, driving to office was difficult. Now it is not. Because your consciousness has opened up. You have now more space. Once space created space remains, whether you drive or not and this space can be used for creativity because this space is blank.

 

In this example, when you drove for the first time, the new route was “something”. But after you drove for a month, it became a “NO-THING”. The new route and the driving vanishes in your consciousness. It does not consume it any longer. Now while you drive, you can do other things simultaneously. You are free while you drive.

When you know something really well. It becomes a NO-THING. Then it does not block your consciousness. When it is new, it “Something”, after it becomes regular or with practice it becomes “NO-THING” it does not occupy or block your consciousness any more.

 

You have created consciousness this way and this way you have created space for innovation while you drive.