Why do we have a self?

The physical body acts as a barrier to change. It does not completely allow change to happen completely. The changes keep accumulating “ahead of us” and give us a future (as they are prevented from moving into the past by the physical body) – the changes that have remained incomplete form our mind and project our future. With time, these accumulated incomplete events accumulate energy and change us to relieve the energy. Because of this accumulated energy these incomplete events have essence or nature.

But when the pass throught the void, they lose their essence or swabhava.

These incomplete events form our mind – our impending future that lay ahead of us giving us a sense of who we are – a self.

Body is God

When the void has formed, everything pass into the past. As events pass into the past in quanta, their potential is released – but in the past, their essence is lost. When the Void is there, everything – events, thoughts, mental constructs, etc are in the past.

Thus there is no future. What is there is the present is the physical body or in other words, the present is the physical body.

If the present moment is God, then this physical body is God.

The Fear of Freedom

I was a part of the crowd, hence I was not visible. I was one of them.

Now I am alone and unique, so I am exposed. 

I am the odd man out, hence visible – exposed and fearful.

Exposure leads to fear. Being the “odd one out” leads to fear.

Exposed because, after enlightenment, I cannot wear another’s jersey.

Earlier I wore someone else’s jersey.

I am not able to be my body, let alone other people

If I was able to own my own body, I would not be alone. I would not be afraid

Who am I? I am consciousness. I am freedom. I am aloneness.

Though being the body temporarily, I do not have my body. 

As long as the physical body is there, it is the consciousness. Earlier it became a lot of things – at a point in the past, it could only become the body

Now it cannot become anything – hence alone and afraid.

Now the question is…

Who is able to see me as different? The process is internal.

I have become aware of my aloneness. The consciousness has become aware of its aloneness.

Earlier there were others – the consciousness is saying – now there is no body. 

Hence I am afraid. 

As long as I have this physical body, I am “consciousness”

When one is alone, anything happens he is afraid – hence I am afraid too. 

It is the fear of freedom.